New Year

Well here it is another year has come and gone.
I don't know if it is because I am older or what, but time is passing way to fast. Slow down a bit time.
So now we should be thinking about resolutions. Usually I have a hard time with this but this year I have resolutions for my mental spiritual well being and for my physical life.
For my physical life my resolution is to simply declutter my enviournment. I feel like I am drowning in an unorganized mess of clutter. No more. Time to get rid of it, and organize what is left. By the way this is going to take a long while. I am hoping to get a chunk done soon to have visible results to keep me motivated. I know myself well enough to know if I don't see a diffrence soon this resolution will fail.
As for my emotional spiritual resolutions there are three. 1. Forgive 2. Apologies 3. Ask for help.
First of I "forgive" easily on a superficial level. I say it doesn't matter. I make excuses for what ever it is. I "forgive" but not really. I still dredge it up in my mind all the time. I harp on things all the time. I can not let it go. I never bring it up out loud, but it is still there in my mind. That isn't good. I have no idea how I will go about this but I will work on it.
Secondly I will apologize when I am in the wrong. I am really good on the meaningless apologies. Sorry I was running late, sorry I bumped into to you and so on. But the really true apologies, not so much. I messed up, or I was wrong. Those kind of apologizes I am good at avoiding. Somehow sweep it under the carpet. It is hard to face when you have truly done someone wrong somehow. But I will try to do better.
Thirdly asking for help is very hard for me. I feel like I have to do things all on my own. At times I also expect others to know I need help then get upset when they don't offer it. However how can they when I don't ask. So I will work on this.
Will I achieve my resolutions? No idea but I will try.