Why all the hate?

You ever go on Facebook and see a cute video? Or on a group someone ask a question? You want my advice? Never read the comments.
I do not know why but it turns into a berating session. The cute video comments are all about how horrible what is happening in the video is, to how dumb the people are who are saying it is horrible.
The questions in groups are often met with snide remarks or insincere replies.
And for some reason people always have to pull politics into it.
I simply do not understand why people have to be this way.
When I disagree with a post or don't like a video or think a person has asked a really stupid question, know what I do? I keep scrolling. There is enough genuine crap in this world that we do not need to add to it with stupid mean comments.
Not really anything I can do about it I guess, except to keep ignoring the hateful stuff I see on others post. Oh and be greatful that the hate hasn't found its way to my own posts, videos and questions.

Money sucks

Somehow I figured that by the time I was in my 40's money wouldn't be such an issue. And don't get me wrong, it isn't like we don't have enough money to pay our bills or anything. However once the bills are paid there isn't enough money left over for a whole lot else.
Every time I think I am making headway something comes up.
I do not get paid for days I don't work. And during the holiday season there are a lot of days I don't work. During the summer I work but a lot less hours. So often it seems once I am a bit cought up from one of these times, boom the other one hits.
There is a light at the end of the tunnel, because one rather large monthly payment I have will be gone in about 2 years. This little voice inside of me starts piping up warning me that there will just be a new bill to take its place. Naturally I hope this damned voice is wrong, but I don't know.
This time of year it gets me because my husband has a birthday coming up and then it will be Christmas right after that. During the summer it gets me because my Children are home from school and I can't afford to do anything with them.
Again, I am well aware of the fact that many have it worse then me. It just would be nice to have a bit more and to get to make that purchus I want instead of saying, no I really need to pay my car insurance first lol.
Oh well this was me just venting a bit.

Sometimes I feel really tired

There are days that I am going along and I feel like I have got it together. Or at the very least I am well on my way to it.
Then there are other days that I get very tired.
I get tired because life threw me not one but 5 curveballs all at once. And I get overwhelmed. Then I get really tired and I retreat into my own little hole. The problem with this is, the rest of my life kind of starts falling apart because I am not dealing with it.
I have been in one of these slumps for a very long time now. Today, I am forcing myself to start climbing out of my whole.
I have a list of goals for today. Not a to do list because right now a to do list is to much, and I will be mad with myself if I don't complete it. So just a list of goals of things I would like to complete today. And it is actually a short list. I am hoping this will help me feel better, give me the energy to start facing some issues that really do need to be addressed, and help me feel less tired.
Wish me luck ;)

New Year

Well here it is another year has come and gone.
I don't know if it is because I am older or what, but time is passing way to fast. Slow down a bit time.
So now we should be thinking about resolutions. Usually I have a hard time with this but this year I have resolutions for my mental spiritual well being and for my physical life.
For my physical life my resolution is to simply declutter my enviournment. I feel like I am drowning in an unorganized mess of clutter. No more. Time to get rid of it, and organize what is left. By the way this is going to take a long while. I am hoping to get a chunk done soon to have visible results to keep me motivated. I know myself well enough to know if I don't see a diffrence soon this resolution will fail.
As for my emotional spiritual resolutions there are three. 1. Forgive 2. Apologies 3. Ask for help.
First of I "forgive" easily on a superficial level. I say it doesn't matter. I make excuses for what ever it is. I "forgive" but not really. I still dredge it up in my mind all the time. I harp on things all the time. I can not let it go. I never bring it up out loud, but it is still there in my mind. That isn't good. I have no idea how I will go about this but I will work on it.
Secondly I will apologize when I am in the wrong. I am really good on the meaningless apologies. Sorry I was running late, sorry I bumped into to you and so on. But the really true apologies, not so much. I messed up, or I was wrong. Those kind of apologizes I am good at avoiding. Somehow sweep it under the carpet. It is hard to face when you have truly done someone wrong somehow. But I will try to do better.
Thirdly asking for help is very hard for me. I feel like I have to do things all on my own. At times I also expect others to know I need help then get upset when they don't offer it. However how can they when I don't ask. So I will work on this.
Will I achieve my resolutions? No idea but I will try.