Birthday started as kind of a bummer

So I know a lot of people have an issue with turning 40.

For me my biggest 'issue' was that I wasn't doing the Camino. Other then that I didn't care. But it is still a milestone, so make a little bit of a show?

Thanks to Social media I had lots of Birthday wishes. Thank goodness or I would have been really bummed.

I work at a place that has just recently opened. It has been open for only 3 weeks actually. One other employee had a birthday since we opened.  It was her 21st.  Another milestone one. We got her a card and a cake. I got....a few "Happy Birthday"s and that was it. Well to be fair I did get to leave work kind of early, because my husband and I had planes for dinner. I tried not to let it bother me that I didn't get a card or cake, but it did bother me. I have known most of the employees and the boss for years. So it bother me.

When I got home, my husband and kids took a few moments from their electronics to watch me open gifts. Then they went back to what they where doing. My husband no longer wanted to go out to eat because he had blood work the next day. Then he got kind of annoyed because I was annoyed and said I no longer cared what we had for dinner then.

At this point I honestly no longer wanted to do anything.
I didn't care about what age I was, but I sure did care no one else seem to really care that it was my Birthday.

I decided to try and shake off my bad mood. I asked my sister-in-law and her husband if they wanted to go with me and my husband to the pier to watch the sunset. I asked my children if they wanted to come. When my teen started to moan about it I told him he could stay home. I was after all trying to avoid negative emotions. He was quite thrilled by the way. I made sure not to seem annoyed because I didn't want him to feel guilty.

We all went down to the pier, and I wound up having a really good time.

I am still bothered by the fact, that no one made an effort to mark the occasion, but I am looking at this as an opportunity to do some self-evaluation. Why did no one make an effort, and why does it bother me so? If I come up with anything I will be sure to share.